lucky number 17

We are down to 17 days. Tomorrow will be 16, then 15, 14, 13, you get the picture. I am trying to remain hopeful but I know that there is a very small likely hood that we are going to get a match in the next 17 days. All that we can hope for is that Vietnam grandfathers in dossiers at least for a few more months. We are so close on the list. If we just had a few more months we would be able to be matched with a baby. But all we can do is wait.

25 DAYS.....

AND COUNTING! Until September 1st. The day that Vietnam adoptions will cease to continue. The day that we have to have our referral or match by.
When we started this process in January I never thought it would be this stressful. Every time the phone rings I jump. Forget about sleeping. I don't remember what a full nights sleep is like! I have no problem falling asleep at first but it is staying asleep that is the problem. And once i am awake i am awake for what seems like hours. My mind racing with the "what ifs". What if we don't get a match? What if we get a match but they decide not to grandfather us in? What if we get a match? What if what if what if!
If anyone has any thoughts on how to occupy my mind for the next 25 days it would be greatly appreciated.